Saturday, April 18, 2009

New Life...New Me

So Robert will be home very soon and I am so excited! He will be home NEXT MONTH!! YES YOU HEARD ME...IN MAY!!!!!! Can you see my excitement!? LOL! I feel like a whole new person these past two weeks. I think there are a few reasons for that but I will say that everything is going great in my life. Yesterday I bought Robert a 2006 Black Ford Fusion. Yeah baby! It is so nice! I have so many things ot be thankful for. Its not just my material belongings either. It is my family. Granted most of them are adopted like, Kelly, Cassie, Tiffany, Germani, Britta and all...but they are my family. I have a beautiful daughter and a wonderful husband. I also have two little shit stick dogs who have been plucking me the past few days but hey... if that is all I have to complain about...then whatever. LOL! I am just stoked that all is finally good for a change. Everything is going right. Plus...98% of my friends are very happy with their lives as well. That makes me even happier. Well I am going to go and have a quick smoke then I am going to call my real dad....well now just my dad. I will TTYall later!


Saturday, April 4, 2009

Ran Into My Mother... I ran into my mother at WalMart...and you know what it went well...for me at least. She of course decided to ignore me and ignore her grandchild, but I was chipper and I said hello from a small distance and I made Emma's arm wave hello. Honestly, I dont think she could get into her car any faster and drive off.

So I have been working on the patience thing...and you know making a conscience effort and giving not only my face, hair, house and body a new makeover...but recently I gave my attitude a new makeover as well. I feel like with my house constinatly spotless, me dressing all bright and shimmery and the mere fact that I make an effort to watch me biting people's heads off and all has really been helping. I feel great and you know when I ran into my mother the other day, both my daughter and I looked great and I was feeling great! Honestly, I am not even bothered by it nor hurt or upset by it. I think everything is going to be OK. I dont see why it shouldnt be. I mean...I have a beautiful healthy daughter. I have a big 3 bedroom house with everything I could ever want in it...cept new furnature...but that is next month...LOL...and I have a wonderful loving husband...who plucks me at times...but hey..what are husbands for. I have everything I could ever want and more.

So why am I so upset and stressed all the damn time? Because of the past? Well there is not much I can do to change it and you know what... all I can do to make it better is raising my daughter right and giving her everything I never had. You know Britta and I were talking today and and I figured something out...with her help of course. I dont know how to be a mother 100%. But I do know, from how my mom treated us, how not to be a mother. So as long as I stick on the current course I am on...I have to be doing something right. You know what.. I really believe that too. Like I said...everything will be that does not mean without trials and all! You just wait and see.